AHHH IM BACK AGAIN ITS ME AGAIN. LET ME SEE WHAT IVE GOT TO TALK ABOUT THIS WEEK. HMM. PRETTY COOL THING HAPPENED THE OTHER DAY, MORE THOUGHTS ON IDW, MENTAL HEALTH WEIRDNESS, TRANSGENDER WEIRDNESS. . SURPRISINGLY A DECENT AMOUNT YEAH.


ILL START WITH THE GOOD STUFF! I GOT INVITED TO A MINECRAFT REALM. IM OUTING MYSELF AS THE FOREVER LONELY WITH MY EXCITEMENT ABOUT SUCH A THING, SURE, BUT ITS NICE. THE ONLY OTHER TIME THAT HAPPENED TO ME WAS IN A BUGSNAX KINNIE SERVER AND WELL WE KNOW HOW PLENTY OF KIN FOLK END UP BEING SO THAT ENDED BADLY. AND QUICKLY. ITS NICE TO BE IN ANOTHER WITH DECENT PEOPLE, MOSTLY FRIENDS OF MY FRIEND WHO INVITED ME BUT I DONT MIND AS LONG AS THEYRE NICE (THEY ARE.) ITS SO COOL WHAT KINDA STUFF CAN BE BUILT UP WHEN YOU HAVE A LOT OF PEOPLE DEDICATED TO SOMETHING. ITS NICE LIVING IN A LITTLE TOWN LIKE ENVIRONMENT IN MINECRAFT. MAKES THE GAME FUN AGAIN. SO FAR MY CONTRIBUTION HAS ONLY BEEN MY BASE MOSTLY BUUUT I ONLY STARTED A COUPLE DAYS AGO. IM EXCITED TO DO MORE IN THE WORLD.


NOOOOW IDW. IM ENJOYING IT, ITS SO GOOD ALREADY. I JUST GOT TO SPOTLIGHT MIRAGE. THE PLOT TOOK A BIT OF A GRIM TURN WHICH IM A HUGE FAN OF, SPOILERS FOR ANYONE WHO WANTS TO GET INTO IT FROM HERE. ID HEARD ABOUT THE WHOLE SUNSTREAKER GETS HIS HEAD STOLEN FOR WEIRD FUCKED UP SCIENCE BUT IT STILL MADE ME HAVE A DAMN MOMENT. IDK MAN THE REVEAL OF HIM BEING A DISEMBODIED HEAD AND BEGGING TO BE KILLED IS A PRETTY HORRIFYING THING TO ME. ITS ALRIGHT THOUGH HE GOT IT BACK ITS OKAY. I ALSO LOVED THE DINOBOTS COMICS A WHOLE LOT, IM REALLY HAPPY TO FINALLY SEE HOW GRIMLOCK INTERACTS WITH THE DINOBOTS AND MORE OF HIS ACTUAL PERSONALITY SINCE IN MTMTE HE MOSTLY IS A VERY SUBDUED VERSION OF WHO HE IS. AND IT PRETTY MUCH WAS WHAT I WAS HOPING, BUNCH OF TOUGH GUYS WHO CANT HELP BUT CARE FOR EACH OTHER A WHOLE LOT. I LIKE THAT STUFF I CANT HELP IT. THE ONLY THING I DONT LIKE IS HOW THEY EARLY ON HANDLED ARCEE BEING TRANS. SHE DOESNT TRANSITION FROM HER OWN FREE WILL INITIALLY, HER ENTIRE EARLY ARC IS JUST “I WAS FORCED TO BE A WOMAN NOW IM INSANE AND EVIL AND WANT TO KILL THE GUY THAT DID IT” WHICH IS. . . BAD. SO SO FUCKIN BAD. I HEARD THEY CHANGE IT LATER TO BE BETTER SO IM HOLDING OUT HOPE, ESPECIALLY WITH HOW WELL LATER TRANSFEMS WERE HANDLED IN THE SAME COMIC RUN, BUT FOR NOW. . . SITTING HERE LIKE “YEAH UHH WHAT THE FUCK.”


MID WRITING THIS I LEARNED THE TRAILER FOR THE NEW SPLATOON CATALOGUE SEASON DROPPED. PRETTY EXCITING! IM MOST EXCITED TO SEE HOW THOSE NEW WEAPONS PLAY, AND THE FACT YOU CAN FIGHT ALL 3 KING SALMONS AT ONE TIME NOW. IM ALSO REAL EXCITED TO SEE MORE BAND LORE, WERE GETTING SASHIMORI BACK THIS SEASON FINALLY AND IM REALLY EXCITED TO SEE HOW THEYVE CHANGED SINCE SPLATOON 2, ESPECIALLY PAUL. MY BOY ALL GROWN UP. . . WAOW. . . YOU SHOULD ADD ME ON SWITCH ACTUALLY. I DONT PLAY SPLATOON ALL TOO MUCH THESE DAYS BUT I OFTEN COME BACK TO GAMES I LIKE AND START PLAYING A TON AGAIN OUTTA NOWHERE SO WHO KNOWS! YOU MIGHT CATCH ME PLAYING AND WE CAN HAVE A MATCH TOGETHER. OHH AND I DO ACTUALLY PLAY A LOT MORE IN SPLATFEST SO IF YOU SHARE A TEAM WITH ME AT ANY POINT FEEL FREE TO JOIN ME THEN TOO. SW-3972-4038-6117.


TOMORROW WERE CELEBRATING MY MUMS BIRTHDAY. ITS NOT THE ACTUAL DAY MIND YOU, BUT SHE NEVER REALLY HAS CELEBRATED ON THE ACTUAL DAY AS LONG AS IVE BEEN ALIVE. I WONDER IF THATS WHY I NEVER REMEMBER THE ACTUAL DAY AND ONLY THE MONTH. . . HM. LIKE IVE SAID IN ONE OF THE PREVIOUS ENTRIES, ITS NOT GONNA BE MUCH SPECIAL, JUST ALCOHOL AND TAKEOUT. ILL PROBABLY JUST MESS AROUND AND HANG OUT WITH MY PALS IN MY ROOM AFTER A BIT HONESTLY LOL. GONNA BE TRYING THE PEAR FLAVOUR OF A CIDER BRAND IM A FAN OF. . . MY FRIEND SAID IT WAS GOOD WHEN HE TRIED IT SO I HOPE ILL ENJOY IT AS MUCH.


NOW FOR SOME MM BAD THINGS. IM CURRENTLY IN A PRETTY BAD OCD FLARE UP RIGHT NOW. IM MOSTLY PURE O SO NOTHING PEOPLE USUALLY COME TO EXPECT, BUT ITS ROUGH STILL. MOSTLY JUST GOOGLE AND RUMINATION. BAD ANXIETY FROM THE INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS AGAIN. ITS KINDA CYCLING BETWEEN 2 OF MY THEMES CURRENTLY, WHICH SUCKS. IM SURE ILL BE OKAY, SATURDAY IM GOING ON CALL WITH MY THERAPIST AND MUM AND WERE GONNA TALK ABOUT SEEING IF MY THERAPIST CAN PUSH FOR MY ANTIDEPRESSANTS TO BE UPPED. THEY HAVENT WORKED IN A GOOD FEW YEARS BY NOW, ITS BEEN PRETTY ROUGH. BUT IM SURVIVING. CALL ME THE ROACHBOY.


DYSPHORIA HAS BEEN PRETTY PRESENT TOO. A GOOD BUNCH OF THINGS REALLY. SOME SOCIAL STUFF AND SOME PHYSICAL STUFF, MAINLY CHEST STUFF AND HOW I SOUND. JUST GIVES ME THAT AWFUL WEIRD FEELING ON TOP OF EVERYTHING ELSE. I DO MY BEST TO DISTRACT WHEN POSSIBLE BUT IT DOESNT PERMANENTLY FIX IT ALL, THINGS LIKE GOING TO BED ARE PRETTY HARD BECAUSE I END UP OVERLY AWARE OF MY CHEST AT TIMES AND IT JUST MAKES ME START WRITHING. SUCKS. I HOPE THINGS CAN LOOK UP SOON ENOUGH WITH IT ALL.


I THINK THAT THIS IS IT FOR THIS WEEK. I HOPE YOUR TOMORROW WILL BE GOOD LIKE MINE IS LOOKING TO BE.

TRAVIS, YOUR EPIC WEBMASTER

ANOTHER ONE OF THESE WOWEE. IVE DECIDED IM GOING GO TRY AND AIM FOR MAKING AN ENTRY HERE AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK IF POSSIBLE. IT WONT BE ANYTHING BIG IN ANY OF THEM 90% OF THE TIME BECAUSE MY LIFE IS VERY BORING, THOUGH, BUT ITS FOR ME FIRST AND FOREMOST REALLY SO I SUPPOSE ITS OKAY. IVE TRIED SO MANY TIMES THESE PAST FEW YEARS TO START KEEPING SOME KINDA JOURNAL OR WHATEVER, EACH ATTEMPT ONLY LASTING ABOUT A FEW WEEKS AT MOST BEFORE I GAVE THE HABIT UP, BUT I FIGURE IT BEING INCORPORATED INTO A PROJECT LIKE THIS SITE THAT IM ACTUALLY INVESTED IN KEEPING UP WITH LONG TERM MIGHT HELP ME.


IN GOOD NEWS, MY MOOD SINCE LAST WEEK HAS TURNED UP A LITTLE. IM STILL NOT THE BEST RIGHT NOW, BUT ITS BEARABLE. ILL LIVE. IVE NOT DONE TOO MUCH CRAZY THIS WEEK TBH! SOME ART BUT MOSTLY JUST RELAXING. READING TRANSFORMERS IDW SLOWLY BUT SURELY, MESSING AROUND WITH MY FRIENDS,PLAYING SOME GAMES.


IM NOT SURE WHERE THIS IS COMING FROM IN ME, BUT I SUPPOSE THIS IS A GOOD THING, I PLAN ON ENTERING AND HAVE ENTERED A ZINE OR 2 IN RECENT TIMES. THE FIRST ONE IM ALREADY IN AND HAVE ART FINISHED FOR, ITS A FURRY CENTRIC ZINE, AND NOW ITS JUST A CASE OF WAITING FOR BEING ALLOWED TO SUBMIT IT. THE SECOND IS A TRANSFORMERS ZINE THAT ACTUALLY OPENS APPS TOMORROW OVERALL, THE BAR SEEMS LIKE IT’LL BE PRETTY HIGH BUT I THINK HAVING THE CONFIDENCE NOW TO AT LEAST TRY OUT ENTERING THIS IS A GOOD SIGN FOR ME? BEEN PICKING OUT MY ART TO PUT IN THE SUBMISSION FORM FOR TOMORROW LOL. THINK I HAVE PLENTY THATS WORTH SHOWING LUCKILY. LETS HOPE IT GOES WELL!


NOT SURE I HAVE TOO MUCH RIGHT NOW TO SAY ABOUT IDW, SINCE IM STILL EARLY ON IN, BUT IM ALREADY PRETTY INVESTED AND I LOVE HOW RATCHET INTERACTS WITH THE HUMAN CHARACTERS SO FAR. ALSO THE PANELS OF HOT ROD HOLDING THE ONE GUY ARE SILLY AS HELL. I WISH THAT WERE ME I MEAN WHAT. WHO SAID THAT. WELL ANYWAYS IM EXCITED TO SEE THE REST OF IT, I ALREADY KNOW MTMTE AND I LOVE THAT PART AND I THINK THE EARLIER IDW COMICS WILL HOLD UP TO THAT BASED ON MY IMPRESSIONS SO FAR


UHHR WHAT ELSE CAN I TALK ABOUT. . . HMMMMMMMM. . . I WENT ON A WALK THE OTHER DAY. NOTHING SPECIAL BUT IT WAS NICE REGARDLESS. NIGHTTIME WALKS ARE UNBEATABLE. ITS ALWAYS PRETTY AS HELL. I SHOULD DO IT MORE MAYBE. BUT GETTING OUT IS MOSTLY HARD FOR ME SO IDK. . .THIS IS KINDA ALL I CAN REALLY THINK TO SAY FOR NOW THOUGH SO I GUESS ILL JUST LEAVE IT THERE. ILL BE BACK NEXT THURSDAY AND PROBABLY EVERY THURSDAY AFTER THAT. . .SO THATS IT, BASICALLY.

TRAVIS, YOUR EPIC WEBMASTER

WELL HAPPY MAY TO YOU GUYS. UNFORTUNATELY IM GETTING THIS MONTH OFF TO A BAD START BUT ILL SAVE THAT FOR LATER. FOR NOW LETS SEE WHATS HAPPENING THIS MONTH IN MY WORLD . . . WHICH ISNT A LOT. ITS MY MUMS BITHDAY THIS MONTH. IM NOT GOING TO SAY EXACT DATES BECAUSE TO BE HONEST? I FORGOT. IM UTTERLY AWFUL WITH BIRTHDAYS, ITS SERIOUSLY SO BAD. BUT ITS ALRIGHT YEAH? WHEN IT ROLLS AROUND WE’RE PROBABLY GONNA GET SOME DRINKS AND NICE FOOD, NOTHING MUCH, MY MUM JUST LIKES TO REST AROUND HER BIRTHDAY AND SHE GOT TIME OFF FOR IT. THATS PRETTY MUCH ALL FOR SIGNIFICANT EVENTS THIS MONTH.


IN A SMALLER EVENT, MY FLAME TOYS RODIMUS MIGHT BE COMING THIS MONTH TOO, IM SUPER EXCITED ABOUT IT. I FOUND OUT HE WAS BEING REISSUED IN FEBUARY AND ORDERED HIM SO FAST, HE’S MY FAVOURITE TRANSFORMER AND MY FAVOURITE ITERATION OF HIM ALTOGETHER SO IM PRETTY HAPPY I GET TO OWN THE FIGURE OF HIM. THE CRAZY PRICED ONE WOULDVE BEEN COOL TOO BUT I MEAN, I DONT HAVE THAT FUCKING MONEY AND NEVER WILL SO. . . FLAMETOYS MODEL KIT IT IS!


I FINISHED HEADMASTERS RECENTLY, UHH. . . WHAT CAN I SAY ABOUT THAT THAT I HAVENT SAID ALREADY. IT KINDA HAS THE SAME TONE THROUGHOUT HONESTLY. SIXSHOT IS EASILY THE BEST CHARACTER IN THIS CONTINUITY, I LIKED A LOT WHEN HE MADE FRIENDS WITH DANIEL AND WOULD DROP PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING FOR THE SAKE OF PROTECTING HIM. THAT WAS CUTE. I’D HONESTLY LIKE IF THEY DID SOMETHING LIKE THAT MORE, MAKE CONS GET ATTACHED TO A HUMAN LIKE THAT AND START BECOMING NICER. KINDA LIKE EARTHSPARK MEGATRON IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT. LOL. THE ENDING WAS BALLS THOUGH. WHY DID EVEN WHEELIE JUST UP AND LEAVE DANIEL LIKE THAT MAN! THEY WERE LIKE BROTHERS THE WHOLE THING AND HE JUST LEAVES. EVERYONE LEAVES HIM AND NOT ONLY THAT, HE SEES SO MANY FRIENDS DIE OR NEARLY DIE THE ENTIRE SHOW LONG. THEY HATED THAT KID FR HE NEEDS SO MUCH THERAPY AFTER ALL OF THAT. IM STARTING ON IDW 1 PROPERLY NOW, YEAH IM ONE OF THE FOLKS WHO READ MORE THAN MEETS THE EYE BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE (DO NOT DO THIS. BAD STARTING POINT. GOOD COMIC, BAD STARTING POINT WHEN YOU DONT KNOW MUCH ABOUT TF) IM NOT TOO FAR INTO IT YET, I JUST FINISHED STORMBRINGER BUT I KNOW IM GONNA LIKE IT FROM WHAT IVE SEEN SO FAR. I THINK THE COMIC CONTINUITY IS BY FAR MY FAVOURITE AND IM EXCITED TO GET THE FULL PICTURE OF IT NOW.


WHAT ELSE CAN I TALK ABOUT. . . NOT TOO MUCH, REALLY. IVE HIT A REAL BAD ROUGH PATCH AS OF RECENT. I GUESS ITS HEAVY SO DONT READ BEYOND THIS POINT IF YOU DONT WANT TOO SEE A RANDOM MAN ON THE INTERNET WHINE LIKE A LITTLE KID ABOUT EMO SHIT I GUESS. IVE BEEN FEELING REAL LOW, IM STRUGGLING TO HAVE THE ENERGY TO DO OR THINK ABOUT MUCH RECENTLY, WHICH IS PRETTY SCARY IF IM BEING HONEST. IM AT MY BEST WHEN I FEEL LIKE BEING CREATIVE. IM STRUGGLING TO FEEL ENOUGH FOR FOLKS AROUND ME AGAIN, THAT VOICE IN THE BACK OF MY MIND TELLING ME THAT I DISAPPOINT AND SUCH. YOU KNOW HOW DEPRESSION IS. ITS GOTTEN TO SOME PRETTY DRASTIC TERRITORIES RECENTLY TO BE HONEST. I MIGHT NEED TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE AGAIN, I WONDER IF MY NAN WOULD BE UP FOR ME VISITING FOR A BIT AGAIN. . . IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE A BIT. OR AT LEAST STARTS HELPING ME GET ON TRACK AGAIN. I CANT WAIT FOR THIS TO PASS. IM TIRED. ITS NOT A GOOD PLACE TO BE IN AT ALL. IM DOING MY BEST TO HANDLE IT THIS TIME SINCE I KNOW THE PATTERN BY NOW, SO I CAN CURB MY ANXIETY ABOUT IT AND NOT SPIRAL SO HARD, BUT ITS STILL PROVING VERY DIFFICULT. ITS NOT A GOOD PLACE TO BE AT AT ALL. I HOPE IT DISAPPEARS SOON.


AND THATS PROBABLY WHERE IM GONNA LEAVE THIS AT, FOR NOW. SEE YA!

TRAVIS, YOUR EPIC WEBMASTER