AW FUCK

FUCK HERE I AM AGAIN. I SKIPPED LAST WEEK CUZ NOT MUCH WAS GOING ON AND I WAS DOING ARTFIGHT LOL. IM STILL DOING ARTFIGHT BUT IVE SLOWED DOWN TO KEEP BURNOUT AWAY.


LETS START WITH THAT, ARTFIGHTS BEEN GOING WELL! THIS MIGHT BE MY SECOND BEST YEAR OF ARTFIGHT AFTER 2021 (MY FIRST YEAR), NOT SO MUCH IN VOLUME OF ATTACKS BUT THE QUALITY IVE MANAGED ON SOME IS GREAT I THINK. DID ONE OF ME AND MY FRIENDS CHARACTERS ALL TOGETHER WHICH IM PROUD OF HONESTLY. CURRENTLY IM AT 13 OUT OF 15 ATTACKS. . . SO I THINK IM DEFINITELY HITTING MY GOAL OF 15 THIS YEAR. MAYBE ILL HIT MY EXTENDED GOALS OF 20 OR EVEN 25 TOO, WHO KNOWS. NOT COUNTING ON IT THO. IM GONNA WORK ON MY 14TH ATTACK TODAY. . . MOST OF MY RECENT ONES HAVE BEEN REVENGING PEOPLE SINCE I LIKE TO DO THAT. I TRY KEEP ON TOP OF MY REVENGES THE BEST I CAN BUT LAST YEAR I GOT OVERWHELMED SO I DIDNT DO A LOT OF THE REVENGES. . . DIFFERENT THIS YEAR THOUGH, THOUGH THEY WERENT PRIORITY. IVE ONLY GOT ONE MORE ON MY PLATE CURRENTLY THEN IM BACK TO JUST PICKING OUT COOL LOOKING OCS THOUGH, SO THATS COOL. IVE NOT BEEN UPLOADING THEM HERE BECAUSE ID JUST NOT GET ENOUGH TIME TO DISPLAY EACH ATTACK, BUT IM CONSIDERING MAKING A DEDICATED ARTFIGHT PAGE TOO?? IM GONNA MAKE AN EXTENDED ARCHIVE OF MY ART AT SOME POINT AND MAKE AN ARTFIGHT SPECIFIC SECTION YEA. . . I NEED TO FIND THE MOTIVATION IN THAT THOUGH. CURRENTLY MOSTLY MOTIVATED FOR DRAWING AND PLAYING VIDEO GAMES RIGHT NOW UNFORTUNATELY.


IN SOME. . , MIXED NEWS! IM ON A NEW DOSE OF ANTIDEPRESSANTS NOW. ITS BEEN ABOUT 2 DAYS OR SO SINCE THAT WAS APPROVED? SO NO CHANGES OR NOTHIN IN MY ENERGY OR ANXIETY LEVELS AND STUFF YET BUT ILL GET THERE. YOU KNOW HOW IT IS. THE DOWN PART IS THAT THIS CAME IN AN UNEXPECTED WAY, I TRIED MAKING A FULL APPOINTMENT SO I COULD TALK ABOUT HRT TOO BUT THEY ALREADY PRE BOOKED A PHONE CALL ABOUT MY MEDICATION SPECIFICALLY. . . AND NOW THAT ITS CHANGED I CANT MAKE APPOINTMENTS ONLINE SINCE THERES A PRE BOOKED REVIEW. THIS IS BAD. I NEED SO MUCH MORE THAN JUST THE MEDICATION AND NOW IDK WHEN ILL BE ABLE TO GET IN, SINCE IT DEPENDS ON MY MUM, WHO HELPS ME LIVE, SINCE YKNOW I CANT DO SHIT MYSELF BECAUSE OF SELECTIVE MUTISM AND OTHER MENTAL HEALTH SHIT, TO BE THERE WITH ME TOO AND THAT DRASTICALLY COMPLICATES THINGS, ESPECIALLY WHEN SHE TENDS TO JUST DECIDE SHES TOO TIRED FOR SOMETHING. . . BUT SOON ILL GET THAT SORTED, I HOPE. I NEED A LOT MORE THAN JUST THE GIC REFERRAL AND ASKING ABOUT SHARED CARE TOO TBH. I GOT LIKE 3 INFECTIONS GOING ON AT ONCE RN FOR THE LAST YEAR LMAO. IG ITS GOOD TO HAVE ONE THING SQUARED AWAY THOUGH. HOPEFULLY SHOULD HELP IN MANAGING MY OCD TOO WHICH HAS BEEN A BIG STRESSOR OTHERWISE IN MY LIFE, ILL BE DAMN HAPPY TO SEE THE LAST OF IT.


NOOOOOW FOR 2 WEEKS WORTH OF ME RAMBLING ABOUT IDW TRANSFORMERS. YEAH IVE BEEN READING A LOT OF IT IN BETWEEN ARTFIGHT, ITS WHAT I DO WHEN WINDING DOWN FROM EVERYTHING ELSE LOL. IM ON ROBOTS IN DISGUISE NOW. I CHOSE TO PASS MTMTE FOR THIS TIME, SINCE I DECIDED ULTIMATELY ITS TOO SOON AFTER THE LAST TIME I READ IT, ONLY A COUPLE MONTHS AGO, AND I DONT WANNA WEAR MYSELF OUT OF IT N ALL. IM GENUINELY CONVINCED RIGHT NOW THAT BOTH MTMTE AND RID ARE THE BEST IN ALL OF IDW, AND IM NOT EVEN THAT FAR INTO RID, IM AN ISSUE OR 2 OUT FROM DARK CYBERTRON NOW. ITS SUPPOSED TO SURROUND MULTIPLE CHARACTERS BUT IT REALLY JUST FEELS MAINLY FOCUSED ON PROWL WHICH IS KINDA FUNNY TO ME. SO MUCH SHIT JUST HAPPENED TO AND OR BECAUSE OF HIM ITS INSANE. HES FUCKING INSANE. HE HAS ARCEE KILL RATBAT AND TRIES TO PLAY IT OFF AS SUICIDE OR SOMETHING, HE GETS MIND CONTROLLED, NOBODY REALISED HES BEING MIND CONTROLLED CUZ HES JUST FUCKED UP ANYWAYS, HES FORCED TO BECOME PART OF DEVASTATOR AND DESTROY HIS HOME, HE SHOOTS WHEELJACK IN THE HEAD AGAINST HIS WILL CUZ YOU KNOW, MIND CONTROL, AND RIGHT NOW? HE SEEMS EVEN WORSE THE WAY HES GOING HONESTLY. I MEAN I GUESS WE ALL WOULD BE AFTER BEING MIND CONTROLLED OR SOMETHING. AT LEAST HES GOT 5 GREEN GUYS FOLLOWING HIM NOW. I LIKE THAT. ITS FUNNY. IM ALSO REALISING IDW BEE MIGHT JUST BE A ME CHARACTER UGGGGGGG. . . ITS REALLY FUNNY BECAUSE HE WAS MY FAVOURITE AS A LITTLE KID AND I FEEL LIKE I GREW UP INTO BEING HIM. THE SMALL PARTS AS WELL OF PEACE MOMENTS, AS LITTLE AS THEY ARE, ARE NICE TO SEE TOO. . .I HONESTLY WANT TO SEE MORE OF THAT. IM INTERESTED TO SEE THEM LIVING ON THEIR WORLD I GUESS IDK. KINDA SAD METALHAWK WENT SO EARLY ON, I FOUND HIM KINDA INTERESTING BUT HE BARELY GOT MUCH BUT HOLY SHIT WHAT STARSCREAM DID TO HIM WAS INSANE. I MEAN YOU EXPECT HIM TO DO THAT BUT. . .MANNNNN. AFTER ALL THIS BIG FIGHT STARSCREAM KILLS METALHAWK JUST SO PEOPLE WOULD VIEW HIM AS A HERO, CARRYING HIS BODY AS IF SOMEONE ELSE SHOT HIM. AND THEN THROWING EVERYONE WHO MIGHT TRY TO GET AT HIM OUT. . . DAMN. DAMN! I COULD SAY SO MUCH ALREADY BUT IM NOT TOO FAR IN AS I SAID, CURRENTLY THEYRE BACK ON EARTH WHICH I WAS KIND OF HESITANT ABOUT THEM PLACING THEM AT AGAIN BUT. . . SO FAR THE WRITING SEEMS TO STILL BE GREAT, I THINK PART OF THAT IS THE EARTH CAST BEING FOCUSED ON ARE A BIT SMALLER THIS TIME AND THEYRE PUTTING MORE PERSONALITY INTO THE DIALOGUE. I THINK ITS GONNA BE JUST AS GOOD.


UHHMB THATS BASICALLY ALL I HAVE THIS WEEEEEEK. RUGH. IM GLAD MY MEDICATION SITUATION IS BETTER NOW, IM EXCITED FOR THAT TO TAKE EFFECT AND TO NOT BE IN A DEEP PIT OF AGONY CONSTANTLY, BUT I REALLY HOPE IM NOT WAITING LONG FOR MY APPT ABOUT THE OTHER STUFF. WITH HOW LONG ITS GONNA TAKE FOR EVERYTHING I REALLY JUST WANT TO GET IT GOING AS FAST AS I CAN RIGHT NOW. IM TIRED OF WAITING, MAN.


SO UMM. BYE BYE FOR NOW. LOL

TRAVIS, YOUR EPIC WEBMASTER