IM NOT DEAD I DIDNT DIE

HELLO FUCKING HELL IM ALIVE ARENT I. THAT SUCKS. HELLO ANYWAYS. UMM THERES A GOOD BIT TO SAY I THINK INCLUDING THIS WHOLE THING GOING FORWARDS (IM NOT DELETING THIS SITE DONT WORRY)


SO LETS UM TALK ABOUT THAT FIRST THE WHOLE THING IS I JUST HAVE BEEN DISTRACTED TO BE COMPLETELY HONEST. THATS GENUINELY KIND OF IT SORRY. I DID ARTFIGHT (I DID MY GOAL OF 15 ATTACKS BTW!!) AND THEN I GOT REALLY INTO PLAYING STARDEW. I JUST GO WHERE THE WIND TAKES ME. WHICH IS ALL TO SAY IVE NEGLECTED TO UPDATE AS MUCH AS I WAS NOT SO LONG AGO, AND I THINK GOING FORWARD ITS JUST GONNA BE LIKE THAT. I THINK THE SITE HAS ENOUGH GOING ON FOR NOW THAT MEANS I CAN TAKE MY TIME ON WHATEVER I WANNA DO (I STILL PLAN TO CHANGE UP THE MAIN PAGE.)


OK SECOND THING LETS GET ONTO MY USUAL LIFE UPDATES I LIKE TO YAP ABOUT MYSELF CLEARLY. IF I REMEMBER CORRECTLY THE LAST UPDATE I MADE WAS WHEN I GOT MY MEDICATION CHANGED. ITS BEEN ROUGH? SINCE. I THINK ITS WORKING BUT NOT AS GOOD AS IT COULD BE, BUT MAYBE THIS IS THE EXTENT OF WHAT IT CAN DO FOR ME CONSIDERING IM DEEPER IN THE SHITHOLE WITH MY MENTAL HEALTH THAN WHEN I STARTED TAKING ANTIDEPRESSANTS. BUT WE’LL SEE. IVE BEEN CALMER AT LEAST, LESS FREQUENT SPIRALS WITH OCD UNLESS IM SPECIFICALLY TRIGGERED, AND A LITTLE MORE CALM MOMENTS. THIS ALL ASIDE THOUGH I GOT ANOTHER GOOD UPDATE, IM BEING REFERRED TO THE GICS AND MY MUM IS WILLING TO HELP ME SAVE UP TO GO PRIVATE! MY TRANSITION IS FINALLY STARTING TO GET MOVING! IM NERVOUS BUT EXCITED AT THE SAME TIME REALLY, I REALLY HOPE I CAN GET APPROVED AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. ITS GONNA BE AWHILE BEFORE I GET MY MONEY SAVED UP FOR PRIVATE CARE AND EVEN LONGER FOR IT TO MOVE TO THE NHS (SERIOUSLY I CHECKED THE WAITLIST FOR THE ONE IM BEING SENT TO, ITS 4 YEARS LONG. ABSOLUTE FUCKING ASS MAN) BUT IM HAPPY THAT NOW THINGS ARE MOVING, AND I HOPE THEY MOVE AS FAST AS POSSIBLE. I MIGHT NOT MEET MY GOAL FOR HRT THIS YEAR, BUT ITS DEFINITELY GOING TO BE WITHIN THE NEXT YEAR ONCE WE HAVE THE MONEY, AND IM HAPPY IVE MOVED ON FROM “WAITING FOR LIFE TO GET IN ORDER SO I CAN START MOVING TOWARDS MY TRANSITION.”


I HAVE STILL BEEN READING TRANSFORMERS COMICS. IDK IF I CAN UPDATE THIS TIME THOUGH AT LEAST NOT IN DETAIL ABOUT THINGS THAT HAPPENED, OR IM LITERALLY GOING TO SPEND THE WHOLE NIGHT WRITING THIS OUT. MY THOUGHTS HONESTLY CAN JUST BE SUMMED UP WITH “IT CONTINUES TO BE GOOD AS HELL.” I HAVE A NEW ME CHARACTER IN WASPINATOR, HES LITERALLY ME I DONT EVEN CARE. IM ACTUALLY ENJOYING THE EARTH PARTS OF THE COMIC MORE NOW WHICH IS STRANGE, I FIND MYSELF WANTING TO KNOW WHATS GOING ON WITH IT WHICH IS FUNNY I FEEL. IDK HOW THEY MANAGED BUT IM NOT GONNA LIE ITS PROBABLY A LOT TO DO WITH MOST OF THE CHARACTERS I LIKE WHO ARENT IN MTMTE HAVING THEIR MAJOR APPEARANCES IN THAT PLOTLINE. ANYWAYS HM I FEEL LIKE. IM GETTING TOO CLOSE TO THE END NOW WITH IT AND OHG GOD THE MORE I READ THE MORE I KNOW ITS GONNA SHATTER ME TO FINISH IT. ITS TOO GOOD MAN ITS TOO GOOD TO FINISH.


I THINK ASIDE FROM THESE THOUGH I DONT HAVE MUCH TO UPDATE ABOUT, UMM REGARDING UPDATING THE BLOG TYPE THING HERE? THIS IS PROBABLY GONNA SLOW DOWN AS WELL. ILL WRITE WHEN I FEEL I GUESS. I KNEW IT WAS INEVITABLE THAT ID BE UNABLE TO KEEP UP WITH UPDATES EVERY THURSDAY, BUT THATS OKAY I THINK. UMM THATS IT THOUGH. ERM. BYE!

TRAVIS, YOUR EPIC WEBMASTER